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Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 14:46:59 GMT

i had the best day ever yesterday.. before i forget well happy belated birthday now to Vanessa, my godsister. After an emotional rollercoaster i've been going through this whole summer. I need a relief from it all and yesterday was just great. I felt bad that i was leaving Nessa on her birthday to see the Backstreet Boys, but i still went. Iris had tickets to soundcheck and Lisa was really great about Iris and I being the only people to go. We get to the soundcheck and Iris and I get to seat first row center. It was so awesome. They're so gorgeous. Man Kevin maybe in his thirties but damn he looked good. A few people got to ask questions and I was on the phone with Nessa and i told her before i left that i would ask BSB to sing happy birthday for her and omg did i do it. hehe. Brian even took my phone from me and talked with Nessa. Omg so cool. To add to that Iris got it all on video. YAY.. The concert was awesome. They played straight back to back songs and the old ones weren't medleys so it was awesome to hear the whole song. It was such a good concert. i loved it. They just keep getting better and better. It was such a great day. Thanks Iris so much and thanks Lisa it was great to go to the concert with you since I haven't had the chance to hang out in a long time. Way to end my summer. so great.. i'm still astonished and giddy.. teeny bopper side coming out all over again.. i wanna go to the vegas show now..hehe...

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 17:52:57 GMT

everyone go out and buy the new bsb cd.. "never gone"...it's only $9.99 at best buy.. it's awesome.. hehe.. bsb fan since 1997..hehe..

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 07:01:41 GMT

need to move away from everything and start anew...

hopefully someone would call me to hang out...

i wished the rain would stop...

i know nothing stays the same
but if you're willing to play the game
it's coming around again
so don't mind if i fall apart
there's more room in a broken heart

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Thu, 19 May 2005 05:27:25 GMT

just want to say Happy Birthday to Carlo and to my Auntie Vie! May the Lord bless you always and all those around you are blessed to have you in their lives.

on a soft side.. i did really terrible in school.. i have to take a class over.. i guess it's okay. just hurts a bit.. i at least i can say i tried my best to stay in there but it wasn't enough... and maybe i'll do better next semester.. as for now i'm heart broken.. thanks though to Darlene.. you've put up with me so much this semester and i don't know how you did.. I'm lucky to have a friend like you.. always understanding and positive.. and to all my other friends who had to hear me vent like crazy.. thank you from the bottom of my heart.. it's been rough for me and i am lucky to be given support and love by you guys...

song of the moment: "untitled" -simple plan
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

lastly thank you to my love.. you've gone through so much because of me and yet you still stood beside me through it all. you don't know how happy you make me feel and how much comfort you give me.. the Lord has blessed me wiht something great and i hope to hang on to it as much as i can.. i love you babe

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Sat, 14 May 2005 02:39:55 GMT

so now it's may and it's just a new month.. things have actually been going good.. except school.. i'm like what border line in all my classes.. sucks i know but hey you get what you deserve right... hopefully i'll kick some ass on finals and get a B in 3/4 of my classes.. i'm fine with the C in the other class.. it's an upper division class anyways..haha..

what i'm excited for.. yay finally after what two or three years.. STAR WARS EPISODE III will be out... whoohoo i can't wait.. i love working at the theatres.. screenings are so aewsome.. who cares about finals i'm watching the movie...haha

on a sad note.. no contact for a week.. must study.. sucks.. i'mma be so lonely... it's okay.. we'll hang out soon.. and we'll get my fish tacos and calm chowder and hang out at the beach..hehe...luv ya...

kay that's all.. i'm outtie.. ja ne

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 02:54:17 GMT

i jogged today.. and i watched him jog in front of me.. he was so far ahead of me... he seemed like my life and my soul was trying its best tp catch up but it couldn't... my life is running by so fast and i can't even keep up with it...

forgive me everyone for being so emo... i can't help it... i'm sorry...

on a happy moment...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my best friend JON!!!! You're finally twenty and I don't feel alone now.. i'm blessed to have a friend like you.. always letting my vent my heart away and pushing me for better.. i wish that i am doing the same for you. may you be blessed always and I love you!!!

another shout out to birthdays tomorrow for i won't be home to blog...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to LISA!!! yay you're twenty!!! one more year girl and we're off to 4th and B to go to those freakin' concerts... I'm truly lucky to have a friend like you. thank you.. and luv ya...may your birthday be a great one

Happy birthday to LEO!!! although we're miles apart we managed to keep in touch and i'm grateful. BOY you are so SEXY with your HAIR!!! hehe.. I miss you so much and i hope that your birthday was a special one just like you. I luv ya!

Lastly Happy birthday to Francis, DUDE!! It's awesome how we've been friends for so long and you'll still recognize me even if i call you "dude". thank you for always caring and checking up on me. It's great to know that i have a friend like you.

other than that.. i hope everyone is doing great.. there's more birthdays to come and i think i'mma go broke buying presents but it's okay... kay have a fun day for me

Monday, April 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 23:05:45 GMT

on a all time low.. I knew I was doing really bad in school and i have before but i was always capable of bringing myself up to getting better grades, but now I feel the stakes are high. Now i feel i that i'm not capable of bringing my grades up and having to settle and maybe even take a class over which i wouldn't want to do at all. I've been through so much this semester, emotionally, financially, and physically that i sleep it off to keep myself from thinking about things which have only led me to not study and finding myself in an even bigger hole than before. I wished i could say that it's a big nightmare and i'll just wake up from this dream, but i can only wished. I just wished the semester would end and that i would rejuvenate myself of what i was before all that happened... I am just completely disappointed at myself...

On a side note... I'll have a comparison of the new sony NW-HD5 to the Ipod when the specifications of the sony walkman are out. Then you can compare for yourself which is better. If you're looking for other good mp3 players other than apple and sony.. creative, rio, iriver and more are also good brands to look at.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 21:06:57 GMT

can we say i'm disappointed. I love sony to death. If none of you know by now. I am a sony freak. well 95% of the time and you all know i'm like anti apple.. no offence to you apple users.. i'm just not into the quality of the ipod although i own an apple shuffle... and i'm not much for their computers or laptops because of the obvious i'm not a graphic design major and i wouldn't that thing to use and not only that i'm a fan of windows. i love the concept better than the mac.. but yes i am disappointed by the new sony NW-HD5 http://portableaudio.engadget.com/entry/1234000210039081/ and the old one looked more sleek http://www.engadget.com/entry/1234000803022002/ it's great that there's more battery life.. it's small, light weight and has more support of the various music files but it's so ugly.. kay that's all i had to say... haha

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 19:35:39 GMT

basically it's the end of spring break and i feel i wasn't productive at all. i basically just worked and hung out with friends. I guess it's alright. I mean it is spring break yea.. i just feel i could have done more i guess. I didn't even get to see the beach.. how sad.. what i realized though.. is maybe i do need to let go of things. i can't keep going around in circles. I need to find balance and if it means i have to let go of things then maybe that's what i have to do...

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 00:36:59 GMT

still emotionally unstable.. but i'll get by.. i had a kick ass weekend though.. it felt good to get wasted for once.. i needed it. just back to having pure fun. man what happened in the bathroom stays in the bathroom..haha.. and the pretzel stuff oh man.. pictures only seen by us, alright.. no one else... while everyone else is on spring break.. maggie is still in damn school.. man i am craving for spring break like nothing though.. i can't wait.. even though i'll just be working most of the time.. it's better than being at school right now.. i can't retain any information right now.. oh well i'll just keep trying.. well gtg.. maggie needs to do a paper.. wish me luck.. cause i suck at papers.. really i just want a B- on this paper..haha.. i scoop so low for a grade..haha..then a micro quiz and anthro test.. my oh my... kay maggie's out peace